it's shattering to be constantly reminded of your own mediocrity, in a way that's very quiet. the shattering, i mean, is very quiet. it's one of those soundless moments in the movies where you can see something go terribly wrong, and no one is doing a thing about it. or one of those moments in life, where things are spiralling out of hand so fast, and so loud, that all the noise that comes out of it is like white-noise, and while you can see the one way out of it is to turn off something, you're loathe to actually do it, because all that chaos is so soothing. maybe it's because all that noise has a way of dulling that constant reminder.

phone panda

phone panda
Originally uploaded by mycrotchetyluv.

my cousin went to Beijing last month, and froze his ass on the Great Wall of Whatsit. He then went to the zoo, where they threatened to throw him out, because the panda eventually complained about the freak with the cell phone and video camera. so outside the zoo, apparently, he saw these phone jewellery pandas, and brought them along for "all the ladies of the house".

my phone panda now hangs on my phone. and when i'm walking and talking [handsfree and i don't get along], it keeps hitting my ear. constantly.

it's a good reminder of what family is all about. the said cousin is not talking to our uncle currently, because they are having what is known in polite company as a disagreement. i believe my cousin was yelling and shouting and turning purple. normally, such tantrums are quite acceptable, but my cousin's somewhere in his mid-40s. his tantrums are pretty awesome. they end in hospital visits. nothing never happens. but everyone gets worried.

whatever. i'm on uncle's side. i get wi-fi for it.

oh gawd.

i'm so lame.